14 I reallllly need to go home

Ok, I'm just gonna say it. I hate to write these posts because I don't want people to get the wrong impression & I hate sounding dramatic. I'm a very very happy & optimistic person and it really takes a lot to get me down, but the past two weeks have probably been two of the worst weeks of my life. I try not to be a burden & a complainer, but i've had about 10 things hit me at once & i'm terribly homesick. I've been trying to stay upbeat & do a lot of things for other people which always helps. I went into my poor bishop's office last Sunday & boo hoo'd my eyes out for about an hour. That helped too. I guess sometimes we just have those days!

I'm also having one of those, "been in Provo far too long" spells. I need to go home to Nashville now.I love everything about my little city.

And I need to see my family.

Might just need to go home for Thanksgiving, I'm dying here people.Now let me reiterate that i'm going to be just fine. This is not a sympathy post at all. I probably shouldn't even be posting this... But i'll also say that I have never seen more blessings come into my life than I have in the past few weeks. It's amazing that I can already see them even during this tough time. Once I get a few of these issues sorted out, I'm sure I will see even more. It's really incredible & I'm so grateful for all my blessings!

In the last two Sundays about 5 of my prayers were answered & I felt so peaceful. At the end of the day I was just so thankful to finally have some answers to questions I've been having. Here are a few experiences in the past little while that have shown me that Heavenly Father is looking out for me.

1. I got a new calling in church. I was originally called to FHE but I have a class Monday night so I had to decline it. I've just felt so blah lately about not doing much for the church. The calling came at the perfect time & i'm so so excited for it.

2. About a month ago a professor walked in to talk to me. He told me he felt inspired to tell me something. He went on to say that the day before in Sunday School they had talked about eternal marriages & the teacher said this, "When I met Dana, I thought she was so cute & sexy, but i had never, ever met someone else before her that i had wanted to spend my entire life with." He then just told me he felt silly but just knew he needed to tell me that.
That was all. Hmm, sometimes it's what you need to hear though.

3. There is a man I work with that is constantly saying sweet things to me. He will call my mom every couple of months to tell her how much he appreciates me for all of my hard work. Every day he comes in & tells me I'm a ray of sunshine or a tsunami of sunshine, haha :) It got me thinking that sometimes you're not supposed to be happy to make yourself feel good, but sometimes it's solely for other people. Even though I've been struggling, I have no problem smiling & making everything okay, because really in the scheme of things, it is. I have so much to be grateful for & so much to look forward to.

Okay, it's official. I talk too much.